hey guys! i know i keep saying i’m going to post, and then never get around to it!
truthfully, i just don’t have the desire to be on my computer very much.. it’s strange as i used to go on sooo much! now i feel like it’s almost a chore! (i think that’s a good thing though, because i need to have a life outside of the computer!)
anyways, i’ve just been feeling a little down the past few days.. i felt a little better earlier in the day yesterday, but as the day went on i just turned into an emotional wreck! i have no clue what my problem is! perhaps the bday blues, or maybe the amount of deaths that seem to be happening around me atm, or the cold/dark/wet weather.. who knows.. i just hope this doesn’t last very long!
i was dragged out to go birthday shopping today but i just felt like i didn’t want anything… i felt bad for my mom as she was trying to get me to ask for something or to at least pcik out something she could get me, but all i managed to agree to was a pair of socks..(which she pretty much had to beg me to want)… how pathetic am i?!
yesterday was alright, my ex came over for tea! it was so good to see him.. i was kind of nervous as it had been a while since i’ve seen him and i didn’t know how i should act.. also, his mother was diagnosed with cancer in july (which he just told me about a week or so ago) and is now dying and i was worried that i wouldn’t know what to say.. luckily, everything went pretty smoothly! we have always had really good conversations and understand each other pretty well so i was pleasantly surprised to see that things hadn’t changed much in that way.. i guess after he left i just felt so depressed.. i feel like i’ve wasted so much of my life (SIX years) being sick.. all my friends grew up, some got married, some had kids, some got degrees, some moved far away.. and here i am being selfish and sick, stuck in a 12 year old’s body and having to live at home and be babied in a sense.. (it’s worse right now because i’m not allowed to drive i guess)..
okay, enough of the depressing stuff.. i’m sorry guys, just had to get it out!.. i was stuck at home all day a few days ago and took some random pictures to pass the time..
first, my mother’s fall arrangement that she grew and dried herself! (she loves making arrangements)
and here is my favourite set of lights…
and here is my awful removable cast… so stylish! (NOT)
oh, then i made cookies to pass even more time… (don’t you hate it when you’re stuck at home, all alone and bored to death?!) lol
cranberry-orange spice cookies! (i invented this top secret recipe last year! and now people are always nagging me to make them..)
k, well i guess i’ll stop my random rambling.. i’m such a bad blogger!
today’s quote is up if you keep on scrolling!
hope you all are enjoying your day, and happy thanksgiving if you’re a fellow canadian!
lots of love,